these days have been beautifully slow: recess week has been a real break for me (basically meaning i got to spend a lot of time at home and out with the people i love) 

i have been... thought-full lately and my heart is overflowing. i still can't quite figure if that's necessarily a good thing because some days i burn out at both ends trying to hear over the noise. these days, i crumble at the feet of Jesus a whole lot faster and more often too because of how helpless and out of control i feel over my life. it is a good kind of weakness though, i have thoroughly experienced the fullness of His grace. and i am learning, a lesson at a time, of what it truly feels like to close my eyes and let Him lead me rather than fight to see through the fog before me. being the planner that i am.. this has been exhausting and petrifying: to not know what follows next/ to not be able to fit every aspect of my life into little boxes with labels and tags (haha i know). yet, i have beautifully discovered that handing my heart to God has opened new doors to a life of excitement and adventure. 

i can kind of imagine really, someday when i finally get to visit the northwest in all its pine-tree goodness, i will track down narrow, dusty path with the same exhilaration breathing down my neck, the same pulsing of my fearful yet excited heart, as in this season of exploration, discovery and adventure.