i really wish i didn't have to deal with being so absolutely incapable of loving romantically. i know i can when it's right, i know i will love with everything i have and all that i can't afford. i have given my heart out to a boy who was perfect. i have. but right now, i'm just a girl that's being swept side to side by my emotions. i'm just someone trying to figure out who i am and what i stand for in a churning, changing world. i'm just someone blindfolded and guided by a Hand that is invisible to me, often tempted to just take off and never come back. i am healing, i am a work in progress. i don't even know where i will be in 5 years time because i'm told that trusting in God means your plans will be wrecked. in the most beautiful way, i know. so don't fall in love with me. don't fall in love with me. don't fall in love with a work in progress, an uncooked cupcake. don't place your expectations on me by believing i am who you have grown to love. my standards change, my favourite songs are only favourite songs for awhile. i still crumble at mean remarks. i trip over comments about how much of a tomboy i am. so don't fall in love with a girl that can't handle love. don't fall in love with a girl that is struggling to even understand how to love her Maker. because that's all there is to it, all love stems from Him and evolves through Him, by Him.

so don't fall in love with a work in progress; don't fall in love with me.