where the Light is

 

this transition week has been a dream, entirely. these days i feel like i'm some place else, living some life else yet still serving the same, faithful, beautiful, majestic God. is this what happens when you choose to enter into a new season deciding to live it through for Him who created all the beauty in this living world?

the sweetest thing my sister told me this week was that i haven't lost my 'touch' to the photographs that i take (that made me swell up on the inside with love and joy). i've come to terms with the fact that i will never be able to make a career out of my love for documenting and giving the world a glimpse of how i see; i've come to terms that a good photographer has a good eye but a successful photographer does what his client wants. i don't think any of that makes me comfortable.

tonight saw me watching We Bought A Zoo- looking at the photos that Benjamin (the main actor) had on his mac.. and under the influence of some really good Sigur Ros songs, i think i've finally settled in my heart to be that kind of photographer. someone who is always there to immortalise all the right moments. to photograph the exact moment my baby opens his eyes or the look of wonder on his face when his first baby teeth falls; the way our hands resemble a locket and our fingers, its clasp; surprising you with a shot as you first walk out from the bedroom door- bedhead and some leftover shaving cream on your chin; the way the light falls through your eyelashes and how snow dances it's way to rest on your hair. my heart is swelling with excitement and anticipation tonight, i have so much love and passion for the small things, the littlest moments with the right people.

in the years to come, i promise to always be where the Light is, something i feel proud of coming up with that has a three-fold meaning hidden somewhere. well, primarily because life could always use six strings and the husky voice of John Mayer and also because good light gives my photographs so much more magic. above all and most importantly, (Psalm 139:11-12) by God's Grace, i will always be in His Light, His love, His mercy. He is the God who pursues me, He is the God who so loves me.